My Dreams Came True and Stillness Achieved
My family was far from wealthy growing up. For the first 10 years of my life, I grew up in my dad's company housing which was a two bedroom apartment without air conditioning. For a family of four, it was such a tiny and humble place that I'd always envied some friends who lived in a nice big house. We moved to a different city later and to a slightly bigger condo, but I still didn't have my own bedroom nor air conditioning, until I was in high school when the family moved to a single family house.
So I was extremely fortunate that my parents agreed, and were actually able to afford to send me on an high school exchange program during my high school years. I spent a year in New Zealand and it is where I was able to build a foundation for my English communication.
My parents also paid for my college education. I was never burdened with a student loan. So, to relieve my parents of any more financial responsibilities, I was determined to find a job immediately after my graduation. It was always my dream to be able to communicate with people all over the world, and possibly travel to different places. I had studied Spanish in college too, and I was looking for an international business job.
It was very fortunate that right after college, I happened to join this company where I met my former boss and mentor. From the beginning, he gave me a lot of opportunities to travel all over the world and engage in so many interesting international projects. He was teaching and coaching me all along and eventually I became a seasoned business person. During these years, I earned a decent salary and lots of benefits. I was able to afford myself some additional education to study for extra business degrees and certifications.
Boy I was greedy?! Not only a success in my career, but I also wanted to get married and have children. I was lucky both came true. And I was able to continue with my career all these years thanks to help from my family and support from my boss. I really need to count my blessings!
About 5 years ago, I was thinking to myself, that everything I wanted to accomplish in my life came true. To have a career in international business and have a family. I am not rich but my life is much wealthier than when I was growing up. I don't have to worry about how to pay my bills. I kept thinking that I really have no regrets in this life. So what am I to do now??
Then it occurred to me - if my life is to go on, I really should devote myself to help others. I need to pay forward! For many years, I was so preoccupied to grow in my career and raise my family. It was all about me. I could not really afford to care about others. Probably it is time to change that.
In my previous post, I mentioned that I was wondering why I wasn't led to become a psychic earlier. But I kind of feel that it is because I was meant to fulfill my humanly life purposes first. To prove this point, it was very difficult for me to achieve stillness needed for a successful meditation for all these years. Because I was always so worried about my work and family. There was always something going on. Now I really enjoy meditating, because my mind is completely still most of the time. Even when something is going on, I now know how to calm down. So, years ago, I was probably mentally and emotionally, and probably spiritually, not ready at all.